Life is refreshing. Even though the fears may come and go and the questions that seem to never end are ever present. Hope is refreshing. Times now seem to dictate the future and even though we are *stuck* in our situations at the time being. They are going to change. Some things will change whether we put effort into them or not. Some things will not change if we do not put any effort into. We are able to do and to over achieve. It reminds me of running or jogging. It takes effort. It takes endurance. It is all worth it in the end and even though there is some *pain* that accompanies exercising there is a joy and a freedom that goes with it as well. Getting up at seven and going to aviation school at 7:45 and studying for a hour and a half then heading to work. Getting home around 5 and start studying for the rest or most of the evening every day is not *fun* but at the same time it gives a feeling of accomplishment. We are not holden back. We can achieve and over achieve. The hard part is the beginning. The beginning is new. It is different. It takes us out of our *comfort* zones. But in reality it is moving us forward. It is bettering ourselves into something better.
But... It is easy to be overcome and forget about God. Got will help in these times where we move out of our "comfort" zones. We must not forget that the blessings and availability to get better paying jobs are from God. We must thank God for everything. We must thank Him for the availability to move forward. We must thank HIm and pray to HIm to help us through the hardships. Job was a very wealthy man and he was perfect in God's sight. God is everything that holds everything together. Without Him life is hard. Life is overly depressing. Life is depressing at times with HIm but to be without Him life is an unending depression. Through these times of trials we become better! Through these trials and tribulations we become more perfect. It takes endurance. It takes patience. It takes God's help. Without Him life would be much more hard to live than needed. God is our help. He is our hope.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
"Good times ahead!"
Ha, it seems as though life is dwindling down to nothing but mere pressure and work. Time seems to be shortened and the fear of joy ever so much present. It seems as though the fear of a good time overtakes the whole time and before you know it that time that you were enjoying is over. The stress of life seems to overtake everything. Rarely it seems as though I can look at a day and expect to enjoy it anymore. Its hard to try to convey what I feel these present days... or at least what I used to feel or the way I thought of life.
Since the last family camp we had in Alaska, I have felt God urging something inside of me to think of life a little more different and to act. Read, and learn. Acknowledge Him and to believe in Him. To trust Him.
I will tell you now that it seems as though He is not real at this moment. It seems as though the church services has become cold and is not how it used to be. Rarely does it seem that the Holy Ghost moves within the services. It has becoming more of a question to me of how do I really know anything! lol. Has what have been taught me during my child years fading away? Has the healings gone away? I'm talking about the blind seeing. The dead being raised. The laime walk. And the blind begin to see. Is this really the church?
Millions of thoughts, questions, and desires pour through each day. It was refreshing to hear someone say "good times ahead". Last Saturday, I went fishing with Isaiah, Sarah, and Daron Solsbee and Serina. I haven't thouhgt life in that way. "Good times ahead" I have always heard "those were good times" And now I can say that in the future there will be good times ahead.
Since the last family camp we had in Alaska, I have felt God urging something inside of me to think of life a little more different and to act. Read, and learn. Acknowledge Him and to believe in Him. To trust Him.
I will tell you now that it seems as though He is not real at this moment. It seems as though the church services has become cold and is not how it used to be. Rarely does it seem that the Holy Ghost moves within the services. It has becoming more of a question to me of how do I really know anything! lol. Has what have been taught me during my child years fading away? Has the healings gone away? I'm talking about the blind seeing. The dead being raised. The laime walk. And the blind begin to see. Is this really the church?
Millions of thoughts, questions, and desires pour through each day. It was refreshing to hear someone say "good times ahead". Last Saturday, I went fishing with Isaiah, Sarah, and Daron Solsbee and Serina. I haven't thouhgt life in that way. "Good times ahead" I have always heard "those were good times" And now I can say that in the future there will be good times ahead.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
The last stand. Or is it? Can there be such a event where there is a "last" stand?
Old memories and new experiences shape our own personal world. Its funny how old memories never go away but at the same time feel far away. Our present time seem to be at odds at itself. Time spent with joy, we fear to end to quickly. The future is always thought upon and the present filled with stress and the past never forgotten. Time seems to get colder and colder with each new law, and the continuing of perverseness getting more bold in our society. Enough to make me almost sick to my stomach and the ever present thought of blandness of life. The routine that seems unbreakable. This is here and now. The days of the past are with us. The future is what we make. The present is what seems to be an ongoing struggle. Don't let life trample the life out of us!!!
I have noticed that I have broken three what seemed impregnable barriers. First, I have always loved music but thought it would almost near impossible to make it. Second, I used to be only to run from one telephone pole to another and when I arrived there I would be breathing insanely hard, now I am able to run 7.8 miles in a continuous non-stop 1hr. and about 23 min. Third, I've loved airplanes ever since I first saw one, and now I'm going to aviation school and actually flew 5 times already and landed 2 times with the help of the instructor, I never thought that I would talk with the Tower.
Don't give hope up. We haven't even began our life journey. There is no ending of this life. Don't give up. Serve God, love the brethren, and serve the king.
I don't know how to explain this. I arrived in Bethel extremely depressed. Now I don't know what to make of it. Recently I've been studying every day except on Sundays, aviation. With this new job (which has been awesome) I have felt that my goal that I made was shattered. My goal is shattered. I'm not going to say "well, this is life." I have hope. I'm not going to let Life trample me down. I feel that there's more. There's more than just "bland" life. I feel that there can be such a determination that breaks these "barriers" to happiness and contentment. These "barriers" that seem to constrain our thoughts, our dreams, and our aspirations. These "barriers" that makes joy seem to fade in a way. There's something that holds us. That makes people act. Their behavior. Evolution doesn't sufficiently answer my questions. And yet, its soooo hard to know. To know what to believe in. To know what is right and wrong. What are the definite right and wrong? How do I know if one "certain" action is right or wrong. These nit picky actions. Do we know who God is? I read the Bible and it comes out differently every time I read it. And these ongoing emotions that conflict what every thing I used to believe in and the emotions that conflict with my present beliefs.
This past year has been a year of drastic changes. Lol, its been my best year though. I enjoyed every moment of it and I look towards the future with same feelings. I've greatly enjoyed the hikes with me brothers. I've enjoyed our camping trips. I have enjoyed sleeping outside only in a sleeping bag, lol. Its Awesome!!! I am looking forward to the future. I'm not saying "goodbye" to the past but am excited what is happening and what is going to happen. I feel constrained in Bethel but I know I'll be back. Matthew has been such an AWESOME brother, he has and still helping me stand my ground. Isaiah and Micah are TWO brothers that also been such AWESOME brothers, giving me hope, giving me care. All three of my brothers show such devotion and love that it is overwhelming and I hope that I can do the same.
Thank you! Thank you men, who died on the battlefields. Making and preserving the greatest nation yet. I can't thank you enough. The ongoing nights and days. Hearing bombs go off. Seeing your fellow soldiers die. I want to thank you. I can not thank you enough.
Nathan Peter
I have noticed that I have broken three what seemed impregnable barriers. First, I have always loved music but thought it would almost near impossible to make it. Second, I used to be only to run from one telephone pole to another and when I arrived there I would be breathing insanely hard, now I am able to run 7.8 miles in a continuous non-stop 1hr. and about 23 min. Third, I've loved airplanes ever since I first saw one, and now I'm going to aviation school and actually flew 5 times already and landed 2 times with the help of the instructor, I never thought that I would talk with the Tower.
Don't give hope up. We haven't even began our life journey. There is no ending of this life. Don't give up. Serve God, love the brethren, and serve the king.
I don't know how to explain this. I arrived in Bethel extremely depressed. Now I don't know what to make of it. Recently I've been studying every day except on Sundays, aviation. With this new job (which has been awesome) I have felt that my goal that I made was shattered. My goal is shattered. I'm not going to say "well, this is life." I have hope. I'm not going to let Life trample me down. I feel that there's more. There's more than just "bland" life. I feel that there can be such a determination that breaks these "barriers" to happiness and contentment. These "barriers" that seem to constrain our thoughts, our dreams, and our aspirations. These "barriers" that makes joy seem to fade in a way. There's something that holds us. That makes people act. Their behavior. Evolution doesn't sufficiently answer my questions. And yet, its soooo hard to know. To know what to believe in. To know what is right and wrong. What are the definite right and wrong? How do I know if one "certain" action is right or wrong. These nit picky actions. Do we know who God is? I read the Bible and it comes out differently every time I read it. And these ongoing emotions that conflict what every thing I used to believe in and the emotions that conflict with my present beliefs.
This past year has been a year of drastic changes. Lol, its been my best year though. I enjoyed every moment of it and I look towards the future with same feelings. I've greatly enjoyed the hikes with me brothers. I've enjoyed our camping trips. I have enjoyed sleeping outside only in a sleeping bag, lol. Its Awesome!!! I am looking forward to the future. I'm not saying "goodbye" to the past but am excited what is happening and what is going to happen. I feel constrained in Bethel but I know I'll be back. Matthew has been such an AWESOME brother, he has and still helping me stand my ground. Isaiah and Micah are TWO brothers that also been such AWESOME brothers, giving me hope, giving me care. All three of my brothers show such devotion and love that it is overwhelming and I hope that I can do the same.
Thank you! Thank you men, who died on the battlefields. Making and preserving the greatest nation yet. I can't thank you enough. The ongoing nights and days. Hearing bombs go off. Seeing your fellow soldiers die. I want to thank you. I can not thank you enough.
Nathan Peter
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Life
The reality of heaven and hell seems to be a fairy tale just like any religion. Some people view it as a containment for "evil." As a group trying to keep social order. Some people do believe in a God but are not sure what that God is. The Christians would label every thing that does not add up to the source of their belief as heresy. As does every other religion. The source of every religion is faith and some have professed that miracles or paranormal instances has happen. Atheists would believe that it is a situation that is totally normal but have not figured what the scientific fact is. Evolution according to math has a probability of happening but who determines anything? As all the things that we have figured out has been by tests. And since the human eye can not see everything when the tests happen we can not be sure of all the actions happening but what is visible to the human eye and what man has come up with and even then we can see how close things are because math is infinite so we say. There should be a never ending ability to the closeness that we can see everything. The truth is, every person has to go by faith. The only thing that we can be sure of and even then history books have been proven inaccurate. Christians say that they have felt the Spirit of the Lord. Non-Christians would say that it is a hyped emotion enjoying an utopian experience when the outside factors of life such as bills exist and that Christianity is nothing mere than a different look on life as of which people look hopefully in the future. What are we to believe in when the hope is lost. What is one to believe when the very God they worship is looked at so many angles. Where every answer to a question is by faith. The faith that the Bible is not a mere Bible invented by a group of men. As proverbs was written by Solomon. THe letters that Paul wrote to the churches and are considered words out of the mouth of God.
A generation of young people will arise and will strive to become the best. The best in thought. The best in their religion. The aspiration of BIG. Not contended with how the world is but is wanting it too become bigger and "wiser." A generation that will in their might try to squelch the existence of a faith that impose on their thoughts and goals. On what ground can one firmly stand and say something is wrong on pure fact and not by faith. Faith. The beginning of man is believed on faith. Belief is the factor that changes the world and how it thinks. Music being so infinite that people have not even scratched the surface on.
A generation ignorant of God's Word that Lucifer will use. Hmm, will you be able to stand the heat when it comes? Or will God have to say "not this generation." A generation that will not conform to the ways of the mind. To the knowledge that man comes by.
Lucifer, an angel fallen by what the Word says by pride. One whose goal is still not understand by a lot of Christians. Whose plans are not known by many people.
A generation of young people will arise and will strive to become the best. The best in thought. The best in their religion. The aspiration of BIG. Not contended with how the world is but is wanting it too become bigger and "wiser." A generation that will in their might try to squelch the existence of a faith that impose on their thoughts and goals. On what ground can one firmly stand and say something is wrong on pure fact and not by faith. Faith. The beginning of man is believed on faith. Belief is the factor that changes the world and how it thinks. Music being so infinite that people have not even scratched the surface on.
A generation ignorant of God's Word that Lucifer will use. Hmm, will you be able to stand the heat when it comes? Or will God have to say "not this generation." A generation that will not conform to the ways of the mind. To the knowledge that man comes by.
Lucifer, an angel fallen by what the Word says by pride. One whose goal is still not understand by a lot of Christians. Whose plans are not known by many people.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
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