Ha, it seems as though life is dwindling down to nothing but mere pressure and work. Time seems to be shortened and the fear of joy ever so much present. It seems as though the fear of a good time overtakes the whole time and before you know it that time that you were enjoying is over. The stress of life seems to overtake everything. Rarely it seems as though I can look at a day and expect to enjoy it anymore. Its hard to try to convey what I feel these present days... or at least what I used to feel or the way I thought of life.
Since the last family camp we had in Alaska, I have felt God urging something inside of me to think of life a little more different and to act. Read, and learn. Acknowledge Him and to believe in Him. To trust Him.
I will tell you now that it seems as though He is not real at this moment. It seems as though the church services has become cold and is not how it used to be. Rarely does it seem that the Holy Ghost moves within the services. It has becoming more of a question to me of how do I really know anything! lol. Has what have been taught me during my child years fading away? Has the healings gone away? I'm talking about the blind seeing. The dead being raised. The laime walk. And the blind begin to see. Is this really the church?
Millions of thoughts, questions, and desires pour through each day. It was refreshing to hear someone say "good times ahead". Last Saturday, I went fishing with Isaiah, Sarah, and Daron Solsbee and Serina. I haven't thouhgt life in that way. "Good times ahead" I have always heard "those were good times" And now I can say that in the future there will be good times ahead.
